Good afternoon world... Was on time for school today... Had 15 hours of peace yesterday. Slept from 5-ish to 8 this morning. Think I was physically, mentally and emotionally drained. I think maybe I've been thinking too much. Its come to this. Whenever I laugh at a joke, I wonder what I'm so happy about. I'm not trying to be a killjoy or stop myself from being happy. Its just that every thought that I have, ends up with her.

What is love if it can be forgotten, replaced or if it can change? It wouldn't be love anymore would it? But isn't that what the world believes in and is trying to convince us to do the same? "If my partner cannot or doesn't provide for my every need then I'll get a new one. I'll simply stop all feelings I have and go find someone more competent." Where's the commitment in love? Where's the love that 1 Corinthians 13 talks about?
Every romance movie I watch says you have to take action. Grab the situation by the neck and control your destiny. God tells me to sit still. Wait for something that I cannot see. I'm told that its the best for me. I haven't had any contact with her since that day. 11 Feb. God... It seems like so long. Its only been a week. I guess its better that we don't have any contact. At least I don't have to writhe in pain when I hear something I don't like... There's still a pain now but its something bearable which God can help me get through. Whoever is reading this, pray for me.

Gotta rush to class now... I'm 10 minutes late.